Insignificantly significant.

To my fifteen year old self,

My oh my... where do I begin. You have no idea what's in stall for you, naive one. Remember that night you turned thirteen and you had your best friend on the other line at exactly 12.01AM. Gasping for air, so full of excitement she said, "You're thirteen now, Elissa! We both are. We can do whatever we want!" Fools. You believed her. You did. And you started going your own way in life. Felt as if the world was yours to conquer and that nothing, nothing at all was beyond that. And when you were fifteen you thought the sun was going to swallow up everything left of the Earth but you felt content anyway. Because you had lived you thought. You had lived at least three teenage years. And you thought that was enough to have seen, felt and experience all the world had to offer. But little did you know, it was merely a speckle of soil in the garden you're about to experience called "the next few years of your life". And my dear, those next few years of your life is when life truly happened for you. 

At seventeen you will finally return love back for the first time. And at seventeen too it will break your heart. Not of a another being but of the person you let the love made of you. It's heartbreaking... How did you ever lose yourself? 

And at eighteen, you found yourself again in the small speckles and trails of your everyday. You found passion in day to day adventures. You look for love in every person you cross paths with in life, even the bad. You found interest in educating yourself. You found happiness in feeding your soul with the lessons you take along with you. Life will surprise you at this point and it's scary. But it's also the leap to take to living the life you have desired.

To my fifteen year old self,

Have faith. Have faith that eventually, just like everything else, it will fall itself into place. But that's the inevitable beauty that comes along with being human, you feel. And I hope you continue to feel. Feel everything. And never take a single thing for granted in your life.

Today you turn nineteen. And your soul is in a much calmer place. Your blood no longer rushes to the mimic your hearing senses touch on irrelevant details about yourself, from the people that don't vividly recognize details of you anyways. The petty, the opinionated and the mindless are no longer a distraction nor a burden however you only wish them well. You still cry, occasionally, but never of the same reason twice and what it makes you out of it is only wiser. You still love the people you once loved, even if their presence are no longer in reach of your sight. However every once in awhile you find yourself staring into void space thinking how they are and how they might be as you brew a cold morning's coffee. And you hope they are doing fine over there. You educate yourself everyday. You live, you learn and you move on. Every day of your life without failure. And thank god, thank god your heart is still pure. And your intentions are still gold. Although it might not seem that way sometimes but I promise you, it is. 

Travel Diary #2: Bangkok.

A Monthly Favourites #1: May 2015.

Beauty

1. Essence Lip Liner in 04 Honey Bun and 11 In The Nude. I have always been an avid believer in matte lipsticks however now I prefer matte lip liners. The pointed end of a lip liner gives a more precise finish to the lips. It gives more control, making the process of appliance precisely less difficult. Beyond for the price it has to offer, the Essence Lip Liner glides on an incredible creamy texture. Worn underneath a layer of lipstick for a long lasting effect, I wear this both on it's own and along with the varies of other lip products for a more vibrant colour outcome. The colours, Honey Bun and In The Nude, are also moderate enough for daily wear. Purchase it HERE.

2. Miss Dior Chérie Eau De Parfum. Described to be as fruity and floral, the Miss Dior fragrance was inspired by love and romance. The lingering smell of fresh citrus and jasmine heart is what I am fond, besides it's obvious adorable glass bottle. My mother and I are both avid collectors of perfumes of all sorts, I own a collection that would last me at least two lifetimes yet recently I have been gravitated towards this classic most. To purchase the Miss Dior Chérie, click HERE.

3. Wet 'n' Wild Ultimate Eyebrow Kit in E963 Ash Brown. If the eyes are the windows to the soul then the brows are there to either make or break an entire look, whether or not it is realized. This five piece set is not only complete but compact enough to be travelled with, making last minute make-up applying on the go a breeze. I bought this early January from a drugstore in Jakarta and I haven't used anything else on the hairs of my brows ever since. The colour is an almost perfect match. Besides being affordable, the Wet 'n' Wild Ultimate Eyebrow Kit also offers several other shades according to one's preference. If one was wondering what I was ever using for my eyebrows, it's this. And only this now. To purchase it, click HERE.

4. Urban Decay De-Slick Makeup Setting Spray. Unfortunately I was stuck with skin that is not ideal to go along with make-up. And I live in a country where the weather does not allow it either. I wear this after my base, and then once more in an "X" motion on my face after I have completed with the entire make-up. The De-Slick mists on weightlessly to oil control and features patented Temperature Control Technology to lower the temperature of your make-up to help it in staying put. Leaving the face with a matte finish. Purchase it HERE.

5. Diorshow Waterproof Mascara. The mascara is one of the most important step I apply into my daily make-up routine. With that, I am constantly on search for new mascaras to be loved. And I am in love with this one. In a mascara I look for a wet formula, elongates the lashes and does not leave a clump finish. Not a believer in massive lashes of messy clumps and spider feet. I became interested with the mascaras Dior has to offer after I bought my first one. I have owned and used up several tubes but this is certainly a favourite. To purchase, click HERE.

6. M.A.C Lusture Lipstick in Budding Love. Limited edition from the Chen Man Love and Water collection, the lipstick gives off a beautiful sheer pink with a purple undertone. I wear this lightly dapped on it's own and extra centered. The Budding Love lipstick glides smoothly at the same time giving the lips a slight moisture, saving my lips from often being too dried. To purchase the following product, click HERE. 

7. Primark Nail Polishes in Satin and Bare. These two came in a box set of four but stood out the most. I had this purchased during my London holiday in 2012 however only got around to using it proper recently. I fell in love instantly. I prefer more muted and neutral colours to the nails as I feel it flatters the tone of the skin most. And these two colours, Satin, a grey and blue fade. While, Bare, an eggshell nude with an earth undertone are the perfect two colours for someone with a taste like myself. The formula of the two nail polishes are beyond as they glide smooth and are completely opaque at one coat. For the price it offers at 2 pounds, these are products worth trying.

8. Dior Lip Glow Colour Reviver Balm in Pink. As I suffer from severe chapped lips-but then again, don't we all?-and the scorching Malaysian weather does not make it any less, this particular product has been a saver for me often. Hands down, the best lip moisturizing product I have ever owned. Formulated with colour reviver technology, I wear this on it's own and it enhances the lips with the internal body's natural glow. Leaving a subtle, natural sheer pink finish. Contains SPF 10, necessary for the protection of your lips from the harmful rays. Purchase it HERE.

Non-beauty

1. iPhone 6 in Silver.
2. Bath and Body Works Fall Scented Candle in Flannel.
3. Toywatch watch.
4. IKEA Mini Cacti set.
5. Ray Ban Ombré Sunglasses.

Music

Listen to the music I have been loving throughout the month of May:

#1 A May's playlist: Something sweet to get by. from elissarosli on 8tracks Radio.

Runway Picks #1: Dior Cruise 2016.

Look 38 & 30.

Look 50 & 17.

Look 4 & 10.

Look 37 & 48.

Look 26 & 24.

Photo credits: http://www.style.com
Photographed by: Gianni Pucci // indigitalimages.com

She Writes. She Excites.

As it is late and vulnerable, like to a lover at the end of a day, I came to talk. Life has been a series of insanity yet sane enough to keep me on safe grounds.  Life has pretty much been nothing less than incredible and further than anything mediocre. I either arrive home at the late AM from a night of deep talks over burnt coffee to roaming around on airport territory with no purpose, but a good company. Or, I stay home all day in a bathrobe drowned by the scent of lit candles and cold bitter tea. But either way, I make the best out of what life throws at me anyways.

About two Tuesday nights ago, someone had said to me "Hope you will be updating your blog soon, I'm in need of some inspiration." which had me feeling a sort of way. Although my blog is often brought up along the lines of exchanging words yet this particular one, so vague and probably nothing at all had made some impact on me. If it's one thing I'd like it is to inspire and be inspired by. To have the privilege of making an impact of some sort towards other souls. Even in a minority. And on a gloomy Thursday afternoon, I discovered that I had.

When I was younger I always thought I knew myself. I truly understood every depth, every corner to the mind I possessed and had conquered it. Little did I know when I grew older it no longer became valid to me. Somewhere along those years, I had lost myself. People say the older you become, the wiser you will be. Did I became wiser? Or was I just being more in denial. As I grew that cling to fantasy grows further and further away from the realist I had become. And I questioned more things instead.

Sincerely I thank you to every single soul that has showered me with kindness and positivity, despite being anonymous on my ask, you remind me everyday of the reason I started writing. More things are coming on to this electronic diary of mismatched thoughts and impromptu 2AM writings. I hope the new theme is loved by all. I have outgrown my French phase I used to live by at thirteen, it is irrelevant to me now. I have been as uninspired and vacant these past few months at everything especially writing. Everything I seem to think and feel does not come out as well when written, and so they are left as nothing but void drafts. I haven't finished writing anything I started from the past few months. I'm making some major changes to the archives and content of this blog, heading towards a different direction instead of the familiar writes I usually do. I will be doing writings focused solely more on beauty, fashion and photography based. And everything else along those lines. Alongside the kind that I already do. Coming soon, in short notice.

Real Eyes Realize.

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In the midst of hardship and constant mental struggles I realized two things; I should have attempted to study earlier in my secondary school life -although, if went back, I'd repeat over the same mistake. I'm playful and a bum, I can't help myself- and second, things don't come as easy as they used to anymore.

Throughout the ages of my seventeen years of existence, I grew, I felt, I experienced. I truly have. I'd like to think I have experienced a fair amount of things for someone as young of an age as I am. Which is not necessarily a bad thing, doesn't make it much of a good thing either. However, I am thankful nonetheless. 2014 was a year of realization and life lessons. I unraveled and found someone I thought I already knew within me, myself. And a few more unnamed, but that's a whole other story. 2014 was also a year of discovery. People grow, people become older and that cling to innocence no longer becomes anything more rather than just a passing fantasy. But like weather and seasons changing, it is inevitable.

"I believe we write our own stories, and each time we think we know the end, we don't. Perhaps luck exist somewhere in the world of planning, the world of chance, and in peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. Life is funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up where you belong." -Anonymous

In 2014, I learned that;

Someone that loved you far too much yesterday can lose that love the next.

Everyone goes through struggles, some are better at approaching than others.

Life is fair.

Just when you think you know someone, they prove you otherwise.

I am actually a crier, and I never knew.

I've lost the people that meant the world to me and look at me now, I'm perfectly fine.

Time really does heal all wounds, no matter how damaged.

You are not able to satisfy everyone in the world, might as well just do whatever desired.